My boyfriend had a true Toby experience Saturday afternoon when I randomly started sobbing during a scenic drive through McLean, Virginia. The pressure of finding a job and an apartment after graduation has finally gotten to me, and it's all I think about from the moment I wake up until the moment I go to sleep.

So the tears started pouring and didn't really end until we parked in the lot of an outlet mall and talked things through. Basically, I'm not happy with my internship in public relations, I don't know what I want to do as a career, I look into the future and see a total blank, I have no idea where I'm going to live, I'm afraid I won't make any money, I'm not confident and I feel like I've learned absolutely nothing from the past four years.

And at the same time, I feel hugely talented, that I'm destined for great things. Or at least for happiness. But I don't even know how to go about finding a job. So anyway, if I've been a cranky bitch to you lately, this is why. I know there is no excuse, but I'm under a huge amount of stress right now.

This is seriously the stupidest entry but I just needed to vent. Boy is coming over and we are going to eat ice cream and I'm going to forget about this homework assignment and my jobless and apartmentless existence, just for tonight.