Umm... my I be frank? I like the 8/2006 picture better. It was nice and muscular, but with a little softness to round out the edges. I think perhaps now it's a little TOO soft-- you've started to lose the definition you had. I'd have to see the front side to say more, though.

Out of curiosity... although we know you dislike being skinny yourself, but what about other people? Do you like the type of body that you hate in yourself, or do you go for the opposite? It would be interesting to know if you only dislike certain qualities in the context of your own body.

TOBY SAYS: You can always be frank here. I'm convinced I don't look like either of those pictures, so I won't comment on which I prefer. As for your second question, well, that's very interesting. I'll definitely address that at some point...

I've never seen a back that was big AND defined that I still liked. But that's probably my personal preference.

There has got to - just has to - be a perfect point where you can look at yourself and just go "yeah, that's pretty good." And by "you" I don't just mean you, but that works for now.

Here's what I'm curious about. Are you looking at yourself to see if you look good enough for most guys to happily molest you at your command? Or are you using a higher standard - possibly an impossible one - that is from you and you alone?

As for whether you'd use similar standards for others - that's a good question. I've felt kind of bad about how I answer that, so I can say I'm curious.

I'd have to go with John S. I like the older pic too, but then you're doing this for you so yea.. I'm sure everybody does that where they admire themselves in the mirror, though we won't admit to it :P

Err, how do you prepare that grilled chicken you mentioned that you've been eating daily. I'm trying to find recipes to make the chicken breast tastier.

I've read your blog but never actually commented, well I did one other time, but am peeking my head out to say hey. Take it easy.

To "expand" [tee hee] on some of the other comments, I'd also go with the 8/06 pic. There's a little more definition in the first one and also the lighting is more flattering. But then again I'd also choose the before pic you posted a couple weeks ago just because I like frisky athlectic types, instead of no-neck monoliths [not that you are]. Your body is a work of art in progress and even if you get to a point where you're completely satisfied with what you see in the mirror, it still has to be maintained through regular workouts. Now, having said that, you're still in a helluva lot better shape than probably 96.2% of the gays out there. Maybe if you posted some frontal pics of your chest and abs section we could get a better idea of where you're at and how far you want to go in this transformation process. Have you read "Body For Life"?

is it just me, or are the boundaries between this and one of those "pro-ana" websites blurring by the hour?

Yeah, post a frontal pic.

Unrelated, but Raquel was on The View today and she looks fucking great for 66! You know she's had work done, but she doesn't have that tight-as-a-drum look. She says it's not about age, but attitude. Um, sure. I'd have a different 'attitude' if I had a seven figure bank account. You can tell she's kind of a cunt, but who cares. With her painted nails and fabu hair, she made Rosie look like a truck driver in comparison. Oh, wait.....

You're a hot buff guy, Toby, but I must say I think you were a hotter twink.

xo.

I'm sorry but I just saw that the boy who got kidnapped from Missoura is going to be on Okra today. Sean Hornsbeck, I think. Anyway, I aint no ped perv, but he's like 15 now and the boy's well, like fucking hot! He's got his hair cut and has prolly already discovered his nether regions. What can I say? He looks like a man already. Kids grow up so fast nowadays. We'll see what he has to say.......

Backne prescription: CS2 Spot Healing Brush

SO HOT. I would fuck you in a second.

Toby, seriously...stop bulking up! You are starting to look like a pinhead, with your body being so big. Notice how proportional everything looked in the first photo? Now *that* was a good weight for you.

add a green hue and see how it turns out.

you'll always be hot to me, tobe. except when you start not to be.

Toby, I have to agree with the rest of the queens on this one: you're back looked much sexier last year.

well, you ARE fat. But that's exactly what you wanted to hear, isn't it?

Beware...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndp10I3Olnw

Nice work on the lats and traps. Posterior delts filled out nicely too.

Greetings Bear-Cub-In-Training!

You were sexy at 160, I suspect you'll be sexy at 260 - you'll just be appealing to a different crowd.

To get a balance of opinions, you should post your pictures here too:

http://www.beefyfrat.com/

I think you'll make a lot of friends there.

Tobear Halliwell. Heh. God I'm clever.

You are beautiful no matter what they saaaaay, words can't bring you down...

The real question is, Are you a God Warrior?

Have you gone through a cutting phase yet? After you bulk up you should go through cutting phase, then bulk up again. You'll just get fat and hide the muscle that you're building.

I agree with the previous commenter. Cutting is so much hotter than body dysmorphic disorder. I can't swing a can of creatine in Chelsea without hitting a BDDer. But cutters? They're self-loathing nirvana.

What's that? Oh. Not that kind of cutting?

Whoops.

Hey Hey Hey! It's faaaaat Toby!

No dude, you look much better slim. Sorry

Wow, Toby. You really are getting fat. You were so much hotter before. Not a good look mate.

Hey Toby...I really liked the skinny you...you were lean, and tone, with definition... remember that you are creating fat cells if you gain too much weight, that may come back to haunt you when you get older and less active. To be honest and not hurtful, you're face looks too puffy in the site pic, and you're starting to get love handles. I think you looked much healthier at 160. Maybe try focusing on being tone and defined rather than morphing into a body type that you weren't mant to have. You might find yourself more satisfie.Good luck in reaching your goals!

are you on the juice?

lol..omg.. you dance to adina howard too!! I didn't think anyone would remember her!

Think you mentioned liking the barrel chested at some point or another -

In any case, lotta guys (like myself) prefer 'em beefy rather than cut. So please, ignore people like Dan Dan and keep doing whatever it is you're doing.

Ever think about joining the renegades? You've got the right build... ;)

HAHA JOIN THE RENEGAYS! That wouldn't be tragic or anything! Afterall gay rugby players are more masc and musc and are allowed to be fat and pathetic without judgement!!!!

P.s. That was sarcasm incase you didn't know

Hearting you!

Rocco: I concur.

what exactly have you been eating? i've been trying to gain weight for the past 10 years...

A) When I think of rugby players, I'm more inclined to think of people like Ben Cohen. This was the comparison I was trying to make. My apologies if there's been any confusion with bloated old queens with masculinity/compensation issues.

Hi Rocco!!!

mmonk,

Dinogainer, and lots of it.

You knew you were going to get some pretty negative comments when you posted that photo, huh?

And, you still went with it.

That takes guts, dude.

I always thought it was hard for people of your old body type to become people of your new body type. If that's the case then I think you've worked your ass off Toby and you deserve props for it. If it's what you wanna do and you're totally comfortable with it and doing it for the right reasons (altho, c'mon we're all gay here--it's BDD), then go for it.

um... i know its a few days late, but you do look fat. and the only reason i say that is that every day i look in the mirror and think i'm fat. so, i've been eating lots of protein and running nearly 40 miles a week.... so, stop eating and start running!!!!!!! and stop by bath and body works while running and get a back srubber!! but you're still hot, and you know it!!!